Betrayal

Existing in life a machine

Betraying humanity unseen

Unhappiness the thread

Return from the dead

Problem of mind

They will be unkind

Fear the primeval instinct

Acceptance the adjunct

Mind brake locked on

Derision always hidden

Silence is the evidence

Confirmation the avoidance

Scream silently in pain

Such struggle brings disdain

I am worthy of self-esteem

Sometimes it seems a dream

Belonging

Born at evening time so far away

Raised through night ‘til day

Forged by a woman so strong

Home was there above the throng

Individualist spirit mindset

Unable to fathom group reaction upset

Penalized by destiny of wanderlust

Realized Aristotle’s declaration of appetite

Reflection the Sesame for awareness

Embrace both sides of the happiness coin regardless

Learning the debits then credits of life enriches

Payment of not belonging encroaches

Stark light of Monday morning reveals lies

Nothing romantic being an island with no ties

Home without belonging emotion mental deficiency perhaps

Human mind relishes me martyr chaps

Banished

No song of love

Banished to wintry trove

Sensory pleasures abound

True value not found

Quiet is the night

Calmness the plight

Wishes into dark

Blackness so stark

Resist loves abandonment

Torture the accompaniment

Soul crying out in agony

No witness to the misery

Invisible distress acute

Skepticism of future absolute

Reality grounds decline

Brings out sunshine

Absinth

Mind and emotion at odds

I am pushed

I am pulled

The winner is destruction

The sweet kiss of nectar draws

Stop this carousel of warmth

No end or beginning

The endless circle is god

So comfortable in the false realm

Contradiction is reality

I deny my humanity

My desire only what I feel

No caring about the physical

The future exists in the present

Those who resist I resent

Time on the side of the straight-edge

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My soul in such pain

This is not humane

Fever in chronic attack

Loneliness at my back

The ringing in my ears

Is like mourning for my tears

Sweet twirls of sickness swirls

Cherry Coke, strawberry vanilla smiles

A soul on fire will be humbled

No smug trite arrogance mumbled

Cold sickness demons surround

Their evil father wants a pound

One prayer Hear O Lord

In fever filled mind the sword

Through soul energy the demons dissolve

With dawn the Peace is resolved